Dear Pam,

Just wanted to stop by today as you came into my thoughts and I just wondered how you are. Terri has been giving us the odd snippet, when she received a text from you etc, to keep us posted. We all love you. Stay strong Pam. xx

hahahapgihdouifn;l;!!!

im surprised.

cuz i was like super incognito.

and all mysterious-ness-y.

love you momma

-katelynnbobatelynn

I was reading an entry by terriberri asking for prayers for you, so I came to see what needed all of our prayers! You are in my thoughts. I have been through tumors with my father and it is a very challanging road to say the least. Please keep me updated on your condition and progress! Much love! BIG HUGS!!!

Allie

Thanks for your comment on my diary. It really touched me and I appreciate the way you shared your thoughts with me. x

Like others, I'm reading about the developments in your own situation. Love you, Pam. You have a great prayer team behind you. We will rally.

Hugs, Love and Prayers are being sent your way!

ma.

you shoulda put up the one of me and josh.

i like it better.

and you put up the one where i look like im raping kolee!

and that one of me kole where i look supa ugly.

[katelynnbobatelynn]

oh momma.

you is so wiseeeeeee.

i love you.

pelase turn my phone back on.

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  Hello again Pam,
Gina's comment brought another thought to my mind, and I thought I'd share it with you...I love the way she so often does that for all of us.

  It came thru her mentioning of Christ's separating from His disciples when He needed to pray with His Father over things which were weighing too heavily upon Him. He did just like Gina said; He got in a quiet place by Himself and gave His full attention to the matters on His heart thru prayer. Sometimes God leads us to such a place, because He knows we need to be there...to get our 'full attention' as Gina said.
  I was reminded of another individual who was lead in just that way; Jonah. He had to go thru three days alone in that belly before he finally broke down and prayed as he should have from the start. You have listened to your heart in a much shorter time, and I'm inspired by your actions dear lady. Thank you for setting such a godly example for others.
  Hope you had a restful night, and have a fruitful day. Take care Pam, and I'll see you again soon..........Michael 

Dear Precious Pam,

  I read the first part of this entry yesterday- about the new tumor....I was overcome by sadness...I needed to pray and spend time with the Lord before commenting and reading the rest.

    YOU were in my thoughts sooooo strongly through the evening...I went to bed praying for you and prayed for you this morning before I could even get out of bed...

    I had planned to come back and read this morning and to comment...I'm really glad that I did...YOU are bringing inspiration and healing to us...through the sharing of your struggles and your beautiful faith in HIM...YOU ARE USING IT ALL FOR HIS GLORY...I am very moved and very humbled...moved to heart touched tears...

     You have and are making such a BIG impact on my spirit, my mind, my heart, and my life.

    Thank YOU!

    With Love and Gratitude,

             Jewel

Hi Pam, so glad to hear from you.

You have to remember that it is normal for you to be having doubts about God at this time and he will not be angry with this, as he is understanding. God works in mysterious ways and if you truly believe in him, then let him decide whether to heal you so you can continue in your current life, or if he decides not to heal you then discover the reason why within yourself.

[pinkgirl123]

Pammie, I have been praying for you faithfully, and I know there are many others that are doing the same.  God is moved by the prayers of His people.  He loves you; you are the apple of His eye.  How could He NOT move on your behalf?  I don't believe this is a new lump on your jaw; I think it's something that has been there all along and has just become more prominant as your treatment progresses.  God has that well under control as well.

Remember that Jesus had times when He was sad and discouraged.  And what did He do?  The Bible says that He went out to the lonely places to pray. God would lead Him off by Himself so He could minister to Him.  And what has He done for you, but lead you off by yourself so He could minister to you?  He wanted your full attention, and I believe He got it.

Rest easy, sweet friend.  There is much to be learned here.  God doesn't waste anything; remember when Jesus fed the multitude then had the disciples gather up the fragments so none would be wasted?  He doesn't waste anything, even when we feel like what we are going through might be just a fragment to Him.  He will not allow this period of trial to be wasted.  He will be glorified through it.

Love you dearly.  Gina

 Hello dear Pam,
Thank you for writing, and letting us know where to direct our prayers for you and your family. I saw a comment of this new lump, but didn't know what it was about until now....I'm sorry to hear of this but I don't believe it's a new growth--I think it just became noticeable is all. You needed to know it was there in order to focus attention on its removal.
  I wish I could offer some wisdom about the doubt thing, but that's something we all struggle with to some extent; and I think the extent depends on the size of our battles. Wondering as you mention is not really what I would call doubt...it's just humanity in you. We shouldn't get rid of that quality because it brings a lot of good things with it, which are worth more than the troubles it brings.
  You get your rest my friend, and know that there are many prayer warriors out here praying for you and your battle. I have even been more consistent myself than usual........and I plan on continuing that trend. You take care, and know you're loved by all of your Family of God members....and I'm one of them.
  Your brother and friend forever, Michael.

((Pam)) . I found this entry really honest, compelling, and really helpful. You are special Pam and precious in the heart of God.

((((((((((((((((((Pam)))))))))))))))))))) Those are the tears of being so deeply touched...I can not thank YOU enough for your note about not allowing myself to be manipulated or sucked in.  

   I DO feel at peace with the decision I made over the money , felt that it IS Fair and it is what Mom would have me to do...

  Your support means the world to me and so deeply touches me..I look up to you so very much!  I think of you, your challenge and your beautiful faith so often...and it makes me feel stronger and more determined to overcome these things that ARE holding me back! 

   With LOVE and GRATITUDE,

           Jewel

Dear Precious Pam,

  Thank YOU so very much for your kind, loving and faith-filled note..thank YOU so much for your prayers!

  I am feeling very low and lowly this morning...Your note was a God-send..Balm to my heart and spirit...THANK YOU!

  I continue to pray faithfully each morning for your TOTAL HEALING!

   Have a blessed day!

 Love, Hugs and Prayers!,

           Jewel

I met this boy in college. He was six foot five and dark and dreamy and he had a straight nose like you see on an antient Roman bust. I didn't pay him much mind- dumb! We sat together in Ancient Literature and he always left something on my seat, a piece of wheat grass, a square of chocolate, one time a black and white photograph of two labs laying in a doorway. One night after class he instructed me to write a wish on a slip of paper. I was apprehensive because I didn't want to write something I was embarrassed by. He didn't read what I wrote. He folded it up and tied it to a string on a helium balloon and let it go. He said it would come true. I wrote, I wish I could sing like Martina McBride. I can't still sing a note. :-(
I like what you wrote about hearing your daughter sing. I also love a smokey voice. My husband sings always. I like to pause and listen to him in his workshop singing at the top of his voice. The one downside is he always sings over the radio.

Thanks for your comment, really meant a lot.

I love your dreams of singing; that is so cool! Music is such a part of my life too.  I sing in the choir at church, I sing on the way to work, I sing AT work.....  I pray that you will be singing one day again, very soon.  Prayers are continuing.

Poor Samo! What a hard lesson to learn, but what a wonderful example of a principal. God is so faithful, to place in our path those people that we need at the opportune moment.  May He bless this wonderful man for all his kindnesses.

And I am touched that you shared my letter with your church family.  What an awesome testimony of the power of prayer you can tell them!  And the prayers continue....

Love, Gina

busy is good...and it sounds like ALOT of busy!!  you just keep on living pam...that's all that matters.

i do miss you.

Dear Pam,

I know how much singing means to someone who spends so much time singing and I will say prayers particularly for your voice. I have faith you will find it again!

I have admiration for your determination and commitment.

I am sorry to read of Sam's expulsion but at the same time in such wonderful surrounding circumstances. It is not everyone who could face an expulsion with such a committed principal. I think it's wonderful that you have his prayers and he is obviously so committed to what he does.

Stay strong, Pam. x

I actually saw these on facebook, then was excited to come here and see them here, too! What a beautiful family you have.  And you look stunning!

I hope you are stronger every day, and can feel the prayers from all of us.  Take care, dear friend and know that you are loved.  Gina

Thank you sooo much for sharing these picture!!!  I loved them!!!!

You are look wonderful...

And I love your hair!

I want mine cut just like it!

((((((((((Pam)))))))))))Hugs of healing! Such a Beautiful, moving and inspiring entry...Made me teary with heart touched tears...I Praise God for all that He is doing in your heart and in your life.

  I'm still praying faithfully for you each and every morning.

   Be sure to keep us posted and to continue to share with us what you are learning!

  Much Love and Many Prayers,

            Jewel

I get really excited when I see you've updated.

I'm so thankful that you're feeling better and healing, bit by bit. God is so faithful and He has shown Himself even more faithful to you through all this. You will come through this ordeal stronger and closer to Him than ever before.

Know that you are in my heart and in my prayers; I look forward to the time when you are totally healed and restored.

Love, Gina

I dont take any vitamins or eat fruit/veg so thats probably what does it. Just went out and brought some vitamins, thanks for your help.

Of course I care about you. I care about everyone around me but especially those who take the time out of their days to help when I ask as well.

You are a truly wonderful person and God has chosen you to show others around that cancer can be beaten and still look beautiful both inside and out.

((((((((((((((((((((((9Pam))))))))))))) Thank YOU for this update! I'm so grateful to know that you are feeling Our Lord's Peace and Comfort!

   Still praying faithfully for you each morning!

   Love, Hugs and Prayers,

            Jewel

In my book their is no greater place to be than resting in the Lord!!!  I am so happy to know you are their getting good rest.

Love you...M

Pammie!!! I am so glad you're home safe and sound!!!  You have been missed so much.

I'm continuing to pray for your total healing and restoration, my sweet friend.  Meanwhile, be kind to yourself. Rest and pray, and rest some more.

Know that you are loved.  I'm glad you liked the shawl; I was delighted to make it for you.  Rest assurred that the ladies in my Sunday school class will be asking about you come Sunday!

Love you dearly.  Gina

(((((((((((((((((((((Pam)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) You are faithfully in my thoughts and prayers each morning!

  I am so grateful that you have been so richly blessed by loved ones!

  I was sad to read about your vocal cords..Praying for your total healing.

   Keep shining for Our Lord!

  Much Love and Admiration!,

                 Jewel

It's so good to hear from you!  I have been thinking of you and have been praying for you and your family.  Love you!

Claudia

***Pam***

Hugs and prayers to our friend........and more prayers each night.

I want to go back to see the sing along version.

(((((((((((((((((Pam)))))))))))) So glad to read that you had so much fun out with the girls and that Richard has been so good to you!

 Praying over your surgery!

   Much Love!,

         Jewel

What a sweet thing for your friends to do! Sometimes you just gotta get out and be girls. It does wonders for you.

You can bet I'll be up early tomorrow, to pray for you.  I am believing with you, as are many many people here.  We're binding our faith with yours, sweet Pammie.

Rest easy. Know that there are angels round about you, and will be with you throughout the surgery.

Love, Gina

I hope your surgery goes well tomorrow...you will be in my prayers!

Love you!!

Claudia

I said before that my boyfriend mum has breast cancer, well she has started the injections now for it and I was just wondering if you have got to this stage also?I am ok. Had a hard week. nearly crashed my car with two kids on it saturday and completely broke down so havent been able to drive which is doing my head in. work is really boring.

dont know about the bone being what raising something from the dead, but it definitely is a spiritual battle.

warfare has increased all over. keep believing

[bubbles1971]

You are so radiant in this entry.

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls..." Matthew 28

  Hello again Pam,
just got in for the night after walking the puppy with Johnny riding his bigwheel (more like Denise pushing it). He's spending the night with us, while Lilly is at her Dad's; first night they were separated...but I don't think he's going to mind getting all of our attention tonight. I'm trying to type this while he's in the tub, but he calls my name like every 20 seconds to see if I'm still here.
  I showed Denise that several of my friends are anxious to hear from her in a diary of her own, and I'll be working on convincing her that it's a good idea. She doesn't have a lot of spare time...duh...but I think she can find some time once in awhile. We'll see.
  So, how many more treatments of this round do you have to go? When will they be doing the thyroidectomy? I'm concentrating on your physical strength and relief from the pain in my prayers right now, but I will add the surgeon who's performing this operation to them as soon as you say it's coming up.
  Take care my dear sister, and I'll see you soon. Have a good night, and see you tomorrow. Michael
  
 

  Hello there Pam,
I just finished reading your latest entries, and I'm very happy to hear that you have had some painfree nights....or at least much less than before. But I was pained to never read of Nikole's coming to her sense with an apology for you...and a better attitude. I hope she has, or if she hasn't; I hope Richard has made it clear for her that his wife comes first and his children second........
  I chuckled when you admitted calling Sam only to cause some homesickness for him...but that's okay since his Mom needed to hear from him. I have more to add, but I hear the ladies just getting home so I'll sign off for now and return later.
  You take care dear friend, and know I'm praying for you often. Your friend and brother forever, Michael.

((((((((((((((((Pam))))))))))))) This entry made me teary with Joy- that you are having so many good times with your loved ones- and the way that Richard has been there for you! So Grateful for this beautiful entry!

  I'm still praying for you faithfully every morning!

  I love you!,

       Jewel

 YOU'RE AMAZING AND AN INSPIRATION!

Hiya. Thanks so much for the quotes you left me. I have decided to follow your advice and stick it out at my new job trying my best until I decide what it is I want to do for good.

Sorry to seem nosy but from reading your comments, do you have cancer?

I'm glad you came up for air long enough to drop us a line! (What are they putting in your radiation treatments? hmm?)

Honestly, Pammie, I am thrilled that you are feeling better. That is music to my ears, and to my heart.  Just keep getting better and better until this rotten miserable cancer is a thing of the past.

By the way, I have a little something I'd like to mail you.  Could you email me at: yomama168@hotmail.com and leave me your mailing address?  I promise not to stalk you. 

Chuck and I are agreeing in prayer for you every morning, for healing.  I'm getting ready to celebrate!

Love you sweetie, Gina

Hi Pam,

I've been reading.

I have been praying for you daily for a while. I have been asking the Lord to bring quiet healing to your body and your spirit. I'm sure I'm not the only one. Think of us as your personal prayer circle.  xx

((((((((((((((Pam)))))))))))) Thinking of you..wondering how you are..praying for you faithfully each morning!

 love, Hugs and Prayers,

        Jewel

(((Pammie))) How blessed you are, to have such a special and gifted young man in your life.  Your Samo reminds me of some wonderful people I have encountered in my life and in my career.  On the front end, there has to be extra time devoted to "learn" them, learn what makes them tick and how they function, but oh the rewards that are reaped back. What a gift and a blessing.

Chuck and I are continuing to pray for you each morning, and I was thrilled to read that you have had some pain-free nights.  What an absolute answer to prayer! God is still on the throne (and He's not leaving it either!) 

Know that I love you dearly; may God watch over and keep you and your family in His care.  May He send angels with healing in their wings to guard you while you sleep.

Love, Gina

 Hi Pammie...I just got the meaning of your id name this past week...pamcakes!  LOL.  What a beautiful entry...I loved it.  You know I have always been VERY sensitive to music, especially gospel...it makes me sooo emotional it is hard for me to go to church because I start crying very hard!!!!  I feel less alone after reading your entry today.  I am sooo thankful you are feeling less pain and sleeping!  Praise God He knows you need your rest to heal.

Have a wonderful day....M

[realdeal]

Hi. I just read your entry and found it so interesting.

Sam sounds wonderful. Must be hard for you but you sound like an amazing mother.

One day when I have kids I am goin to want to write about them all day too.

Have a nice day

xoxox